But..... I have to post it, don't I? I finally went through more of my records today that includes a disc from Kaiser with all of my final pre op appointment pictures on it. Just looking at those, I guess I have gotten used to my new face. Maybe I'm trying to force myself to get used to my new face because I don't have any other choice. ::sigh:: My new chimp face that bulges out on one side more than the other and is not swelling and will not go away. I wish I could get used to my new bite like that, but that is not going to happen. I feel like it's getting worse every day instead of a feeling of getting used to it even though it's screwed up.
First of all.... these in office photo's are never flattering. These are definitely not the before/after photo's I wanted to post for my 3 month post op update, but here they are. Top is preop, the bottom postop. The post op ones with Gunson look a little funky since he makes you wear a piece of bite wax to hold your bite in place the same for each shot (that is the pink piece between my teeth in a few pictures). The last picture makes my stomach churn. I know I asked this at the end of my last blog, but how do you go from the top picture (pre op) to the bottom picture (post op)?? Seriously. How?!
First of all.... these in office photo's are never flattering. These are definitely not the before/after photo's I wanted to post for my 3 month post op update, but here they are. Top is preop, the bottom postop. The post op ones with Gunson look a little funky since he makes you wear a piece of bite wax to hold your bite in place the same for each shot (that is the pink piece between my teeth in a few pictures). The last picture makes my stomach churn. I know I asked this at the end of my last blog, but how do you go from the top picture (pre op) to the bottom picture (post op)?? Seriously. How?!
I had trouble closing my lips before the surgery, but it's even worse now after since the upper jaw was moved too far forward.
Oddly enough, I do like the little turned up nose I got out of the upper jaw impaction. Most people hate it. But again, can't close my chimp face lips. :\
Hard to tell in the pre op pic on top, but there's an overbite. Otherwise, my teeth were looking pretty damn good. Below is post op. I still can not fathom how I went into the surgery with the top bite, and came out with the bottom. :(
I have some more consults scheduled in the next few weeks. I am seeing Dr. Kasey Li at Stanford University Hospital (another super top surgeon like Gunson- I'm not settling for anything less now after all this mess), and I'm actually throwing a few orthodontist consults in as well. It can't hurt at this point. I like my ortho. Nice guy and all, but I am just so violated and stripped of confidence now from everything that I don't trust anybody anymore and I want second and third opinions on everything. It does bother me that he tried to fix this with ortho and has caused everything to be even more messed up now (my jaw joints are clicking and hurting more and more each day unfortunately). Each surgeon I talk to immediately says he had no business even doing what he's done to me post op. So, I guess it's not without reason that I have my doubts even for him. Honestly, I don't think I'll ever trust another doctor again in my life after all of this. I wish I could stop myself from feeling that way, but I don't think I'll ever be able to shake it now.
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